As crazy as this may seem, I'm 21 years old and just figured out how life works. I was the quiet/shy type growing up and spent the majority of my time playing video games. I enjoyed the hell out of it, but it has made me into a sheltered and socially awkward person. I am extremely easy going and try to give everyone a chance when getting to know them. I don't like to judge until I fully know how that person really is. I like to keep everything relaxed and drama free, there is no need for drama and negativity. Life is too short for all that, and as I like to always say, "at the end of the day, we are all going to die". Now I don't mean that in a negative way; I have noticed people seem to get uncomfortable or weird when I say that. Death does not have to be a bad thing, it is going to happen one way or another, so don't allow it to be a bad thought.
My main goal in life is to die happy. I know that I am in control of my life and have the option to be happy without anyone or anything taking that from me, but it's not an easy task on this infected planet I was put on. Don't get me wrong, this Earth is beautiful, but we have taken things to a different level.
As long as there is greed, power, and money on this Planet, my dream of a perfect world will never come true.
I'm glad I have had my eyes finally opened. I consider myself lucky. I will not allow myself to become another robot in today's society. The greedy people in control of money and power have successfully done their job of brainwashing society to live their life with restriction. Now I'm not saying that everyone is being tricked and their lives suck. People are happy with how their life is going and I have no problem with it. If your fully, one hundred percent, happy with how your life is going, keep strong. I guess I am more open minded than most people are.
I mean, it just makes sense to me that: if you aren't quick to judge people, if you treat everyone you meet with respect and love, if your not greedy, if you don't allow money to control your life and decisions, etc., then your already extremely more open minded the "society" I speak of. I don't know if it's because I live in the South or if it's my ethnicity or what, but it just seems like it's hard to find genuinely nice people. I have been to Miami, FL and New Orleans, LA to visit family, but besides that, I have been living in south Mississippi all of my life. I'm sure there are different and friendlier places elsewhere in the US, and hopefully I will be able to figure that out for myself. It's a shitty situation when you live somewhere with the whole "Southern Hospitality" reputation and it's not true. I lived here all my life and the majority of the people here are quick to judge, and if your a little bit different (whether it be in appearance or beliefs), then your quickly being judged by looks and weird faces.
I don't understand why people are like that. Why can't they see that there is no right or wrong way to live if you just love one another. Just because your doing everything "by the book" doesn't give you the right to treat someone like they are garbage just because they decide to live a different lifestyle that is not "normal" to society. Good for you if you "lived the way your suppose to live" by giving in to society's standards. We aren't the type of people that like to live that closed minded, 4 year college, suit and tie, 9 to 5, working to become in control, kissing the boss' ass, repeated lifestyle. Keep in mind that if you are like this and love the way your life is going, go for it, it's not my job to judge people.
I hope this is all coming out the way I would like it to. Never being too good with people, I never really gave myself the chance of clearly speaking my thoughts. Just know that I never intend to hurt or offend anyone, I'm just voicing out my opinion.
I understand that I will always be apart of some "system" in this world, so I haven't allowed myself to go completely crazy with the fact that this will never be a perfect world. I cannot fully live the way I want because I would probably end up homeless, hungry, and so on. Being homeless doesn't sound all too bad now a days, but I would rather live a more comfortable lifestyle, so I just have to find my way in this system.
Going through this whole "life" experience has been quite the trip. I have never really had full control over myself like I do now, and I still have quite a bit to work on. I have always been spoiled and sheltered, and I blame no one but myself for the way I am.
Before this recent reality check, I have allowed my emotions to get the best of me. Shit isn't fair in this world and I have allowed depression, anxiety, and anger take over. I never really realized how I was until it started to affect the people who mean the most to me. I feel like I have hit a refresh button on my life path. I am trying my best to stay positive, be free, and keep control of my emotions.
I'm going to try my best to make a positive impact in this world we live in; and realistically, that's all I can do.
